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19May/100

Becoming a Graphic Designer (take two)

Things never turn out as I planned them, and a week ago I received a letter from Norges Kreative Fagskole telling me that there was too few applicants for interaction design in Trondheim, so it wouldn't be available this fall after all. Talk about taking a blow, I was really looking forward to switching subjects and starting over in August - it felt so right - but now I'm back to square one. It's not a bad square, it's just that I really thought that interaction design would be easier for me, physically. I was a little worried that this meant that I wouldn't be able to start back up at all this year, but thankfully I received another e-mail today telling me I'm free to choose from the other subjects offered, so I guess I'm back on track heading towards becoming a graphic designer as originally planned. At least I don't have to feel bad for not using the fantastic Mac Pro Øyvind bought for my birthday last year for anything really useful, or for spending more than 3000,- NOK on Adobe Creative Suite 4 Design Premium, and then another 3500,- NOK on a medium-sized Wacom Intuos4 Pen Tablet. As a tiny little bonus I bought all the needed books and most of the required materials last year, so I won't have any really big expenses this year.

I don't know, everything feels better this year. A lot of things have worked themselves out, and a few burdens have evaporated. I have Theo, who makes my day so much brighter, and we're all crossing everything possible for any potential sicknesses to stay far way from here. My dream is still to get an education, which will bring me one or two steps closer to getting a job, and one day be able to earn a decent living for myself. I just need to stay focused on my goal instead of letting smaller setbacks get to me, bringing me down and making me doubt. I also really want to be one of the many students of NKF, maybe join the yearbook squad, make new friends, establish contacts - just be a part of something bigger, and more meaningful.

I'm not getting any younger goddammit, and I need to do something with my life - now is the time!

26Aug/090

Becoming a Graphic Designer

I don't know how many times I've started this post about school, but I never seem to finish it. My inspiration has gone. Probably to the part of my brain that's supposed to come up with the best design ideas ever. The last three weeks I've been busy with preliminary courses, studying the basics of Mac and the software we'll be using throughout the next two years. We'll be using software from the Adobe Premiere Design CS4 package, which contains programs like Photoshop, InDesign and Illustrator. I've been using Photoshop for several years now, and I'm really pleased to get the chance to learn a little more than I've managed to teach myself from playing with the program over the past years. I was kinda skeptical on Monday, as the course turned out to be a lot more practical than I had imagined, and I'm having a hard time drawing by hand at school. So I became afraid that I might have to quit once again, and I had already decided that this would be my last shot at getting myself an education. Luckily I was summoned to a meeting today after class, to speak with my main teacher and a counselor about my needs and situation. Now I'm very relieved, and extremely happy! I was told to come to them if I had any problems, and they would do whatever possible to help. It's really inspiring to finally have found a school where they actually care and want me to succeed, and it's great to be able to put away the doubt and fear about failing. I can do this!

Naturally I've been spending a shitload of money lately. I've bought my books, and the list of needed supplies is long as a bad year! Who would have thought that I'd ever buy markers at the price of 1200,- NOK? The set we're gonna use is Visualisation, and they are Tria Markers from Letraset. The set contains 24 markers, and these are meant for illustrations, coloring, storyboards and other things like that. The price is insane, I know! Then there's pencils, pens, erasers, coloring pencils, brushes, paper of all kinds and sizes. And every little must-have is devouring a small piece of my account as they accumulate.

We have three days left of our "Fadderuke", so I'm looking forward to the stand-up show tomorrow, as well as the ball on Saturday! Since the wedding we were attending next weekend has been called off, I was really happy to get another excuse to wear my gorgeous blue dress. I just hope the dress will be done by Friday, and that it'll turn out as good as it did in my head. We'll see! If everything goes well, I might just have pictures to share.

30Apr/090

Stjerne til NAV!

Idag kom dommen fra NAV, jeg har fått klarsignal til å studere ved NKF! Jeg er kjempelykkelig, for dette gjorde min kommende hverdag sinnssykt mye lettere - og jeg kan begynne på morsomme studier uten å vite at det går ut over noe annet, økonomisk sett. Dermed går studiekontrakten min i posten på mandag, og jeg er herved kommende studine ved NKF fra høsten 2009! Gud, det kjennes godt, og jeg gleder meg virkelig til å starte. Nå har jeg også meldt meg på obligatorisk forkurs i "tegning, form og farge", og jeg tror det blir kjempespennende å endelig få sjansen til å studere noe kreativt, så vel som praktisk. Jeg har mange ganger vært lei meg for at jeg lot meg overtale til å gå allmennfag den gangen jeg skulle begynne på videregående, men nå får jeg likevel sjansen til å prøve meg på det som virkelig frister. Jeg gleder meg! Grin

Ellers har dagen idag vært fantastisk på alle måter. Sol fra skyfri himmel, 20 grader ute og bare luksus! Var en tur i byen, uten noen spesiell grunn, og kunne for første gang på lenge gå ute uten ytterjakke! Så utrolig deilig. Etter å ha spist cheeseburger (med ekstra ost) på McDonalds, og irritert meg over den forbaskede russen som oversvømmer byen på denne tiden, gikk vi tilbake til Solsiden og avsluttet med en is på Cielo. Har jeg nevnt Cielo? Det er helt klart den beste isen i byen, og etter at man selv kunne velge hvor mye is man vil ha i begeret har det blitt fast rutine å gå innom der når været er bra. De har så mange fantastiske smaker at det er vanskelig å gjøre seg opp en mening om hvilken som er best, men mangosorbéen deres er helt himmelsk. Ellers kan jeg trygt anbefale Kid Surprise (Kinder), Lakris, Whisky Cream, Dolce Latte og Krokan. Nam! I følge værmeldingen skal været holde seg bra imorgen også, før temperaturen igjen faller og regnet kommer tilbake. Håper bare ikke drittværet blir langvarig, for alt blir så mye bedre når været er bra.

Jeg har forresten fått meg en enhjørning! En helt egen enhjørning. Han heter Foxtrot. Behovet for hell og lykke er nevneverdig stort for tiden, og hva er vel da bedre enn å ha en egen enhjørning? Foxtrot levde i aller høyeste grad opp til forventingene da prislappen hans på magisk vis ble redusert med 100,- kroner, og nå sitter han fornøyd ved siden av PC-skjermen min og venter på sitt neste oppdrag.