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27Sep/150

Spiraling upwards?

It's like I'm a schizophrenic, with the language I mean. I might be. A little bit. I'm constantly trying to come up with ways to reconquer my inspiration, but I end up with.. nothing, leaving my diary kinda sad and forgotten. We've reached October almost, don't ask where September went because I can't tell you, but in a breath or so Halloween will be upon us yet again. And what was my first thought? Which day is it? Will there be a party? Of course there will, Halloween 2016 falls on a Saturday. Imagine me doing the happy dance behind my monitor. There. I'm entering somewhat of a new era here now, with my sidekick going away for 15 months as of tomorrow. I'll miss her like crazy. Because she's crazy.

I've been spending my days budgeting, making planner inserts, wondering how to get filthy rich in a heartbeat, attending events like the Chippendales, partying, drinking too much, making out, and so on. In other words, nothing new. I might not have much to talk about, or even brag about (oh, but I do, I just can't), but I'm preeetty content with my life at the moment. Surely I shouldn't put that into words, or else everything will start spiraling downwards, but hey! I'm the optimist here.

So. Partying. A lot of it. Every weekend. Whisky. A lot of whisky too. And beer. And rum! Why haven't I been doing this before? I did when I moved to Trondheim. The first year or so, but then I grew tired of it. Or maybe I just got a boyfriend. You tell me. I've changed so much over the last two years! Not to the extent that people won't recognize me, but inside. I've become so much more outgoing and social, so.. happy? I enjoy going out, drinking, getting to know new people, making friends. And every time it feels a little bit better than the last time. I can't explain it, it's just the best feeling ever. Of course I fuck up here and there, who doesn't, but I guess that's part of the ride I'm on. Please let this ride last forever!

Posted by Shamini on September 27, 2015 – 9:43 PM

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