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17Jan/110

Is that a light I see?

I had a quite nice experience yesterday. I started talking with a relatively new friend of mine (she's in a similar situation to mine), and she wanted to know how I was. I told her honestly that I've been feeling like crap for a long time now, and that it seems like I've developed - I don't know what the correct term is - a depression, anxiety and the panic attack. Turns out she knew exactly what I was talking about, and we spent some time discussing the topic. She showed me a text she'd written a few years ago when she was where I am now, and reading it gave me goosebumps. It was so accurate, so.. me. It could very well had been my text, my words, my thoughts. In some weird way that was a tremendous comfort to me, really understanding that I'm not the only one experiencing this. She had experienced exactly the same. She had the very same thoughts, the very same fears, when she was where I am now. She told me to not be afraid, to keep in mind that I'm not sick, and be open about it.

Suddenly I feel like this is something I can conquer. Maybe not tomorrow, but I will succeed. Now I'm going to focus on the good things in life, take my.. allergy pills, concentrate on breathing correctly, and start planning fun stuff for the year to come. I do have a lot of things to look forward to now, and I'm pretty sure they will help take my mind of the issues which are making me feel down. I feel like life might just be looking up a bit!

Posted by Shamini on January 17, 2011 – 1:24 AM

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  1. I’m very happy to hear that! Good company can work wonders Smile

    • Thank you, dearest! I’m having a hard time believing that all this is caused by my mind, so it was awesome to hear that someone else in a similar situation (physically) had experienced it all, in exactly the same way. I think that alone may help me get a step or two further. And yes, good company always work wonders – you won’t believe how much I’m looking forward to our weekend!

  2. What about planning a trip to London or something? Smile Go see a musical for instance!

    • London is definitely a place I want to visit, and we’ve been talking about for quite some time now. I’m not sure if it’ll make it to our list of plans for this year though, as we already have some traveling planned – and I’m dying to go back to Paris or maybe Rome this summer. Smile


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