Exit old, enter new

Sheesh, I'm feeling so uninspired these days. I've lost count of how many times I've logged into my blog to update, but then just closed the page without typing a single word. Our window is still broken. We still have one Chihuahua, as opposed to two. I'm still a brunette. They say fall is a time for change, when some things end and others begin - not that I'm planning on going blond or anything, but there's definitely been a change of future plans.

Due to some personal issues I've decided to postpone school once again, so I resigned from my spot last week. Don't think it was an easy decision. I've spent several weeks pondering, talking it over with my family, trying to decide what would be best for me - but now that the decision has been made I feel only relief, and not regret. At least this time I don't feel like a complete failure. I don't have anything else mapped out for the coming year, but I'm sure new plans will emerge when time is ready. I haven't worn any makeup for a very long time now, except for some mascara as I'm testing MUFE Smoky Lash Extra Black Mascara. It's impossible to do a proper look when my pool of inspiration has dried up on me. What happened?

My neck is acting up again, and it's frustrating wanting to do stuff without having the energy to follow through. Maybe it's the weather. Maybe it's the time of year. Maybe it's just life. I hate the fall, go figure - and I hate the uncertainty of not knowing what's coming in the near future.

Posted by Shamini on August 22, 2010 – 5:46 PM

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  1. Uncertainty is difficult to deal with – I understand what you mean. Although this is easier said and done – try to twist it around – try to see it as “the are so many possibilities” – after all, life is what happens when we’re busy making plans, right? *BIG HUG* You’ll get there, hon Smile

  2. Øyvind:
    I love you too, my dear Heart

    I hate uncertainty, even though I completely agree with you! Sometimes I think I’ve got somewhat of a split personality. I don’t know, a lot of crap is happening all at once and it’s getting to me. I’ll read your comment at least once a day, and try to keep my chin up. Thank you, it means a lot to me! *HUGS* Smile

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