Single once again

I'm ashamed.. it's been so long since the last time I wrote, that my friends have started leaving me messages in my guestbook! They want to read what's happening with me, and my life, I guess. A lot of thing has happened (again), and once again I'm single. This time it was my choice, but I really hated to hurt Christian like that. I don't know what happened, but I think we work a lot better as friends, than lovers. He agreed on that too - some of the magic between us disappeared when we finally got together, and stopped writing. It might have been to soon for me, I don't know. I've been thinking a lot about my true feelings. I don't know what I want, but I know that I'm finished with relationsships for some time. It's hard to describe what I feel, but I'm thinking that since I've been in a relationsship since I was 16 years old, almost continuously, I now want to 'fool around'. Maybe not literally speaking, but I'm feeling like flirting, and having fun - no strings attached. This may sound strange, as I'm a female - but hell, that's the way I feel!

I've also been neglecting my friends on the internet, not been online as much as I use to.. and I'm really sorry about that. I hope you can all forgive me! In addition, our darling relatives from the US have been visiting us, and time has flown - in their company. Steve, Sue, Kim and Katie was here for about 2 weeks, and it was great to see them again. I can't believe how fast the time went by, and now they're back home. Well, Jay has also been staying here since July, and he's still staying here for another 2 weeks. I really like him, and I'm glad he stayed so long! Hope it will not be too long until everyone is able to meet again - and I'm most certainly going back to Connecticut in the Fall 2004. Nothing can stop me!

Apart from all this, I've finally turned 24 years old. Smile I was so lucky that I was able to celebrate together with my family, or at least most of them - and that was great! Christian gave me a new mobile, Nokia 3510i, the one I wanted - and I was very happy. Jay bought me a great, big Tatty Teddy! He was just so cute, looking shy with a rose behind it's back. (Thanks Jay, I really love my "Jay Bear"!) Kim and Katie brought me a goodiebag with a lot of stuff - like a beautiful blue and white striped shirt, a pair of "Happy Birthday"-socks, two power bracelets, a photo album, some stickers for my scrap book, and a really beautiful porcelain box. Steve and Sue bought me two silver charms for my charms bracelet, a tiny giraffe and a seahorse. Smile Kim even baked pies for me, and they tasted heavenly.

Oh, and I've decided to get a cat from my sister! He's a georgeous red and white tabby male - and I've absolutely fallen in love with him. I haven't decided what to call him yet, but he'll have a Viking name for sure. I've been thinking of "Loke", the Norwegian name for "Loki", or maybe "Fenris" or "Odin". I'll post pictures of him shortly - I promise!

Posted by Shamini on August 16, 2003 – 9:46 PM

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